Let me start by addressing the fact that, yes, it's been quite a few months since I’ve blogged or appeared on any other social networks.
I had put myself on a temporary hiatus to work on a few personal things. Looking back on it now, I'm not sure what triggered it, but quite frankly, I had sunken into a bit of a depressive state. Throughout my life, I've come to known periods of sadness, but this was different. I lost the motivation to blog, make videos, take photos, and even Instagram (my favorite!). Slowly, I also stopped going out, I stopped working out, and just spent a lot of time at home. I continued with the bare minimum of going to school and work, and almost nothing else. Sad, I know. (-_-)*
I never could figure out why I was feeling that way, or maybe if it was the typical mid-twenties slump people talk about, but I knew I wanted to do something to make myself happier. It felt like something was missing from my life; a sense of motivation or purpose.
Obviously now, with the presence of this blog post, I’m feeling a lot better. :) As cheesy as it sounds, I feel like I owe it all to a book. I was walking through Barnes & Nobles one day (a place I find quite comforting), when I came across “The Happiness of Pursuit: Finding the Quest That Will Bring Purpose to Your Life,” by Chris Guillebeau. The title probably doesn't help the cheesy factor, but honestly, when you felt the way I did, it doesn't matter. At my lowest low, part of my sadness was becauseI felt that the world didn't understand me, that I didn't understand me, but this book did.
"I felt a deep discomfort the life I had been prescribed."
"They had a life that was relatively satisfying, but waiting beyond their comfort zone, was something better."
The idea that knowing that other people in the world had felt what I was feeling was eye opening and refreshing. Guileau's book shares many stories of people he's met around the world, finding a sense of fulfillment through lifelong (and short term) quests. I'm only halfway through the book so far, which also walks you through different ways to discover your own quest, but I feel so much happier already., just knowing what to do now. One of the suggestions is a bucket list. I've put together mine here.
This blog has always been a place for me to share different looks I wear and videos I've made, but it's called "In Jen's Life," after all. I'm excited to start posting looks frequently again, but in addition to that, I want to make this a place to record my personal quest for happiness, and towards creating a better self. That's what a blog was originally for, wasn't it? It was an online diary. I didn't really understand that before, but now I do, and I have a whole new love for blogging.
It's going to be a long journey, but I'm excited to embark on it, and share my experiences with you all. I hope you're doing well, enjoyed this read, and come along with me on this adventure! (You can check out the book here) Also, before this post becomes an essay, I'll talk to you guys again soon!
P.S. Meet my new dog Lulu! :) Bruce is still very much in the picture, he just has a buddy now. Special thanks to my cousin Donald for the pictures. :P